...If my dreams come true...

Getting married??!!

2006-05-09T04:21:00.000-07:00

I strongly believe he is the one...Always pray for the best in life...

Soulmate..

2006-03-28T11:39:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time there are a teacher and his student lay down under the big tree near the big grass area. Then suddently the student asked the teacher,

Student : Teacher, I'm confuse how we find our soulmate. Can you please help me?

Teacher : "Silent for few second, than he answer"
Well, it's pretty hard and easy question..

Student : "THINK HARD" Ha???

Teacher : Look on that way, there are a lot of grass there, why don't you walk there but please never walk backward, just walk straight ahead. On your way, try to find a beautifull grass and pick it up then give it to me. But just one.

Student : Well, ok then... wait for me...
"Walk straight ahead to the grass field"

"A few minutes later..."
Studen't : I'm back..

Teacher : Em, well I don't see any beautiful grass on your hand.

Student : On my journey, I found few beautifull grass, but I thought that I would find a better one, so I didn't pick it up. But I didn't realize that I'm in the end of the field, and I hadn't pick any. Cause you told me not to go back, so I didn't goback.

Teacher : That's what in real live happend

What is the message of this story?
* Grass -- is people around you
* Beautifull Grass -- is people that attract you
* Grass Field -- is time--

In looking for your soulmate, please don't always compare and hope that there will be a better one. By doing that, you'll waste your lifetime, cause remember "Time Never Goes Back".... So try to accept what he/she is.

Love game??!

2006-03-27T06:08:00.000-08:00

I dunno how people can easily fall in love..
For me, love is not a game..
Don't take it for granted..
Once u've been hurt..
The wound stayed forever..

Don't worry, I will always pray for your happiness..
Even u've hurt me so bad..
Take care my friend..
Hope u'll find that real someone..One day..

Why???!!!

2006-03-22T04:59:00.000-08:00

Why I have to face this hard phase of my life again??!! F * C K!!!

I miss you..

2006-03-17T12:33:00.000-08:00

I miss you, I miss loving you, and I miss you loving me. I know it's hopeless, but I want to go back to the way we used to be. Happy, loving, and not worried about anything. Maybe it's just in my dream. The truth is we will never be together again..

When you love someone..

2006-03-14T11:03:00.000-08:00

"If you want something badly, let it go. If it's comes back to you, then it's going to be yours forever. If it doesn't then it's never going to be yours..."

My hope...

2006-03-10T09:28:00.000-08:00

I just hope to sleep
And never awaken
Nothing left in this world
Could replace what you have taken....

The Secret

2006-03-06T15:33:00.000-08:00

7-Mar-2006
Tuesday

One day, one friend asked another,
"How is it that you are always so happy?
You have so much energy,
and you never seem to get down."

With her eyes smiling, she said,
"I know the Secret.
I'll tell you all about it,
but you have to promise to
share the Secret with others."

"The Secret is this:
All I do is live a simple life,
have some really good friends,
a happy family and enjoy nature.
I have learned most of the time
I don't need half of what I think I do.
With the above thoughts,
I learned the 'Secret' to a happy life."

The questioner's first thought was,
"That's too simple!"
But upon reflecting over her own life,
she recalled how she thought a bigger house
would make her happy, but it didn't.
She thought a better paying job
would make her happy, but it hadn't.
When did she realize her greatest happiness?
Sitting on the floor with her nephews and nieces,
playing games, eating pizza or reading them a story.

Please tell someone the Secret too.

Ignorance is Bliss...

2006-02-27T13:22:00.000-08:00

If ignorance is bliss, why aren't more people happy?

Musim berlalu...

2006-02-26T00:14:00.000-08:00

Musim Berlalu
by Anuar Zain

******************

Melewati hari-hari
Aku rasa sunyi
Kian lama menyendiri
Jiwa yang tak terisi
Merenung ke dalam diri
Ku rasa kekosongan
Segala yang kumiliki
Makin jauh pergi

Di suatu masa
Hidupku bahagia
Tika hadirmu dulu
Ke dalam duniaku
Di bawah awan kita
Pernah bersatu
Menjalinkan rasa rindu
Semusim yang berlalu

Semua kini tak lagi kutemu
Saat denganmu
Yang semakin jauh ditelan waktu
Kenangan lalu
Bersemadi dalam jiwa ini
Kekal bersemi
Sebuah cinta abadi

Aku menyusuri waktu
Dengan rasa rindu
Pada senyum dan tangismu
Semusim yang berlalu
Aku benar merasai
Hilangmu tak berganti
Sejarahmu yang gemilang
Kan tetap di ingatan

Aku rasa sunyi
Tanpa kau di sisi
Sering terbayang setiap
Kenangan bersama
Tempuhi segalanya

The Fountain...

2006-02-24T16:49:00.000-08:00

Feb 5, 2006 - taken by my bestfren at Marien Platz City Hall, Munchen..I like it! :D nice one..

Problem..problem..

2006-02-21T02:23:00.000-08:00

I got this problem since last week..guess what?!! Hm my sleeping problem. Terasa mcm sakit pun ada, tension la bila nak tido..tak boleh tido pulak. What should I do??!! Rasa mcm nak telan sleeping pills pun ada..Hehe, tapi takutla pulak nanti addicted (setiap kali nak tido kena telan..jadi routine plak, mampussss!!). Last week, I think 2 days jugak tak tido. On last thurs, I went back home at 9am..mandi and ready to sleep. Huh..I couldn't sleep, just baring and bergolek sampai 4 jam. Until dah tak boleh tahan, terus bangun kemas rumah, basuh baju etc (ni apa yg I selalu buat when I feel tensed up :D). After 2 hours mengemas, I rasa fresh balik..terus pegi ofis. Keja lagi..bosan..

Pastu, on last saturday nite..I felt sleepy at 11pm. My cousin pulak ajak tengok movie..one of afdlin shauki punya movie. Bodoh gila nak mampus!! At the end, rupanya..I yang tengok sorang. My cousin dah ntah ke mana-mana (fell asleep dengan jayanya...) I jer yang terkebil-kebil sorang. I tried to sleep at 230am..berjaya! Unfortunately, terjaga at 4am..terus tak boleh tido balik. I bangun and tengok astro (movie title NEMESIS GAME, it's kinda weird..huh). I tried untuk tido balik at 7am, after subuh..tak berjaya jugak. Then my dad ajak pegi test drive keta idaman I..hehe, memang excited sangat sampai terus tak mengantuk. I pengsan or called tertido at 3pm..tak sedar diri sampai 8pm bila semua orang dalam rumah datang kejutkan (my cousin, my mom, my sis, my nephew) :D

Ohh, I got another problem too. Maybe rentetan dari peristiwa yang tak diundang :) mcm cerita sastera pulak. I don't know how is my life after this. I am scared to face the reality..I am counting days!! Yes, I am still crying before I fall asleep..almost everyday..I don't know why I keep asking myself,
"Why all of this should happened..???!!!"

Moral of the story, don't love somebody too much. It will hurts you..very deep and you will live with it..

DON'T FORGET ABOUT US..

2006-02-07T12:33:00.000-08:00

Yeah, I love this song..
Someone dedicated this song to me :) Thanks a lot!! Sayang u..

DON'T FORGET ABOUT US
by Mariah Carey

*****************************

[Intro:]
(Don't forget about us)
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
My baby boy...

[Verse 1]
Just let it die
With no goodbyes
Details don't matter
We both paid the price
Tears in my eyes
You know sometimes
It'd be like that baby

[Bridge 1]
Now everytime I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about

[Chorus]
Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us
I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

[Verse 2]
Oh they say
That you're in a new relationship
But we both know
Nothing comes close to
What we had, it perseveres
That we both can't forget it
How good we used to get it

[Bridge 2]
There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter what you go through
We are one, that's a fact
That you can't deny
So baby we just can't let
The fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret
So don't forget about

[Chorus][Rap]
And if she's got your head all messed up now
That's the trickery
She'll wanna have like you know how this lovin' used to be
I bet she can't do like me
She'll never be MCBaby don't you, don't you forget about us

[Chorus x2]
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us.

Favourite song!!

2006-02-07T12:21:00.000-08:00

GOMENASAI
by TATU

**************************

What I thought wasn't mine
In the light
Was one of a kind
A precious pearl

When I wanted to cry
I couldn't cause I
Wasn't allowed

Gomen nasai for everything
Gomen nasai, I know I let you down
Gomen nasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

What I thought wasn't all
So innocent
Was a delicate doll
Of porcelain

When I wanted to call you
And ask you for help
I stopped myself

Gomen nasai for everything
Gomen nasai, I know I let you down
Gomen nasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

What I thought was a dream
An mirage
Was as real as it seemed
A privilege

When I wanted to tell you
I made a mistake
I walked away

Gomen nasai for everything
Gomen nasai, Gomen nasai,
I never needed a friend,
Like I do now

Gomen nasai, I let you down
Gomen nasai, Gomen nasai,
Gomen nasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

I am tired!!

2006-02-06T12:14:00.000-08:00

My sleeping time - siang, my working time - malam. It sounds crazy but that is the reality. I have to face it everyday since I joined this function. Yeah, I don't like this kind of life. I want to be a normal person..but I have to search for another option first. Huh..Last 2 weeks is the hardest time of all!! I have to let my best buddy go to other function and welcome another buddy (of course not my fav) to my function. What can I say..I have to face it. Hmm this is the reality..which makes me sick! But I will try my very best to do it..and face it..Even I don't like it!! Phewsss

Last weekend on Chinese New Year holiday, pegi langkawi. Hmm lama tak spent time with my family. Finally, they decided utk pegi langkawi on that holiday. Best best, terus mlm tu tido tak lena. On that Sunday morning, bangun punyalah awal..around 6am sebab nak pegi langkawi. Sampai jer kat Kuala Perlis, makk oiii!! Orang ramai gila..mcm semut. And of course, semua org queue utk beli tiket nak pegi pulau tu..hehe termasuklah my mom and I. Dah la at that time baru pukul 1030am, tiket feri @1230pm. We all pegi makan2, then lepak2 at the jetty sampai la 1230pm. Sampai langkawi, lain pulak citer. Huh..Dpt kereta pukul 530pm, punyalah lama lepak jetty langkawi tu..dah la under renovation..buhsan!! After that baru holiday kat Pulau Langkawi bermula...hehe, nothing interesting, just the cable car at Gunung Matcincang tu jer yg best. On monday, dah balik penang :D

Weekdays, seperti biasa..kerja kerja kerja..

Last Sunday, I went to refreshment class for my scuba diving license. Nothing much, just a refreshment in the pool at bukit jambul golf & country club. I went with shima, hm she's kewl!! She's open..we had a talked and yes, I like her style..I can talk about anything with her. She is my scuba partner now!! :D Now, I can start dive again..Hmm Pulau Redang..

Today, malas nak buat kerja..Huhu :(

Out of the blue..

2006-01-27T14:25:00.000-08:00

On the same day, out of the blue..

27 Jan 2006
5.33pm

My bestfriend just dropped me an email and mentioned about my name..
"..beautiful name.."

27 Jan 2006
11.55pm

After a while one of my suppliers respond to my email and mentioned about the same thing..
"Nice to talk to you, too. You have a very beautiful name. :-) "

Hmm thanks to my parents..they are the one who gave me this beautiful name..I am flattered!! :D

Kesilapan atau Kebetulan..

2006-01-26T11:23:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, I really think that you just don't appreciate my love. Maybe that is my kesilapan, always put my expectation on other people. I thought I know you well but I just don't. I've given you my heart but it seems not enough..

What I've been through..I can say as the toughest time in my life. To see you again..hm I don't want to put any hope. Deep inside my heart, I just hope..I will never see you again but..I want you to know that I still missing and loving you. I just want you to be happy everytime and everyday. Maybe by not seeing me again will give you the freedom that you are searching for. May all your wishes come true. It comes truly from the bottom of my heart. I always pray for your success and happiness.

Now, I really think..it is not our fault. Ini satu kebetulan which I think we should accept.

A song for you..

MY ALL
by Mariah Carey

*****************

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it’s wrong to love you
Then my heart just won’t let me right
Cause I’ve drowned in you
And I won’t pull through
Without you by my side

I’d give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I’d risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
Cause I can’t go on
Living in the memory of our song
I’d give my all for your love tonight

Baby can you feel me
Imagining I’m looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you’re so far
Like a distant star
I’m wishing on tonight

I’d give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I’d risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
Cause I can’t go on
Living in the memory of our song
I’d give my all for your love tonight

I’d give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I’d risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
Cause I can’t go on
Living in the memory of our song
I’d give my all for your love tonight
Give my all for your love Tonight

Good night and sleep tight dear..

My weekend..

2006-01-22T21:01:00.000-08:00

Hm here I am, in the office again. After 2 days off, saturday n sunday. Tak puas lagi weekend, dah kena mai ofis balik. Actually today kedah public holiday (Sultan's birthday..), eventually I pun dok cuti ni..hm talking about logic here, I don't think I akan tenteram go for window shop when in my head asyik teringat kerja aja..:D huh, I don't believe this..Lately, I am so workoholic!! This is one of the way untuk mengelakkan my mind dok fikir about sad things..so pathetic..

Last weekend, I spent my time with syim and my cousin. Yeah, we are getting closer..we are sharing our same interests such as window shop, hiking, swiming, etc (still finding something new to share with them..) :D I think the reason why we can get closer is we are all ex-mrsm..there is a lot of things, which I rasa..our level of thinking sama..hmm that's why..We shared almost everything. Yes, I like being with them..eventho somehow I feel like something missing..

My cousin is really a good swimmer..I never know about this before until yesterday. She really show her swimming skills :D she is really good!! I am not that good but I determined to be as good as her..Hmm

Syim just finished her car pretest yesterday..and she is confident with herself untuk lulus her real test this coming friday. I hope she will get her licence asap!! Huh..risau aja, takut dia kena tahan polis or jpj..dahla kecik..hehe ;)

Ohh talking about weekend, hmm at home..my elder sis macam moody.

I asked my mom "Apa kena tu..dok perli2 orang pulak??.."

Then my mom pun cerita dah lama dia tak balik SP. My brother in-law pulak..dah berapa hari tak balik my my mom's house..peliklah!! I don't know what is their problem but come on..they are husband and wife..so they need to discuss about this things la!! I don't like to interrupt into their life story but then I feel so frustrated when a marriage and a family which they had built..not been appreciated. They should think to make things better..not trying to get it worse. And I really don't agree if my parents masuk campur..I always remind my mom on this..Diorang dah besar, they should think logically. They are adults, they should know how to handle their problems. Ohh, one more thing..communication is the important thing in a marriage life..

Lately, I've heard about marriage life yang tak okay aja..my ex-boyfren pun sama. I don't know what is his problem with his wife but hm..they should think about it again before they come out with any decision..

Hm maybe I should think about it again. It's okay, there is still time for me to get away and find someone who is suitable for me. I am not that good but I will try to be a good wife to my beloved husband..haha :D ntah bila masa akan tiba..I know I have to face everything in life..Life is interesting!! It will become more interesting when we can share it with someone we love with all our heart..

Cheers!!

I need someone to talk to!!

2006-01-20T13:42:00.000-08:00

Jan 20, 2006
Amylea still in the office..gila apa!! It's nearly 6am..go back lohhh..

I got storylah..nak citer nak citer..

This is what we call life..heh ;) pretty interesting. Sometimes we really need someone to talk to. Hm that's happened to me..like right now. Sangat terasa nak bercakap with somebody but unfortunely this is their bed time.."apa la aku ni, sedar diri tak waktu keja tu bukan waktu normal orang bekerja (Hm yeah..WOW!! Ini dah time tido..eh silap..ni dah time orang nak bangun solat subuh lah!!)"..ni dok tengah marah diri sendiri la ni..uwaaa..

what happened today ekk?? hmm nothing much..ohh, balik kerja semalam sangat tak boleh tido. That "someone" pulak dok sms me, hm malas nak layan..tapi sebab satu hari je dia keja malam, so layanlah dia sms sampai la time nak tido pun nak ajak pegi breakfast (Hello, jauh la..mcm mana nak fetch aku nak pegi breakfast..kutt yer pun!) Hehe..yer yer je aku ni, kalau that "someone" dekat pun..hm macam malas jer nak layan! Rasa kesian jer kat dia not suka or 'love' jauh sekali..tapi dia baik!! Huh..

Dah tak boleh tido tu, i kacau la one of my besfren's bestfren! Ask her "Where r u?? Dah balik belum..". Sebab macam lama jer tak sembang dengan dia. Eventho I hope I will not see her again, tapi hey..I am not that cruel lah!! I used to call her 'Angel' because of one interesting incident..Don't want to look back!! :D But I will write it on this blog when I become normal again (I mean when I recover sepenuhnya..I wish for that!)

ohh my goodness!! It's already 6am, aku tak solat Isyak lagi ni. Baru teringat..better move my butt now!! Hurry up...tata :p

Yeaaaa..yeaaaa..tomorooww dah weekenddd..

I am feeling lonely..

2006-01-19T10:34:00.000-08:00

Behind These Hazel Eyes
by Kelly Clarkson

**************************

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

p/s : hazel eyes??!! :D haha..

Feelings...

2006-01-17T13:53:00.000-08:00

Talking about feelings..hm i'm so fragile! I cannot stand when it comes to feelings..which always make me down..I cried almost everyday but hm just only me myself know what I felt inside..Yes, all ppls around me said that I'm strong..I look strong but nobody knows..Hm the other side of me is not that strong..I am so weak..Only Allah knows everything!

Where is my heart?!!

2006-01-13T14:34:00.000-08:00

I am still thinking, missing and loving you so much..
Good nite..Have a good nite sleep!

Love...

2006-01-11T13:43:00.000-08:00

Are they in love or they are just making love??!! Hehe
Whatever it is, I miss u alot my meow...

My Moods...up and down

2006-01-11T13:23:00.000-08:00

Job, hmm i like my job but rite now..huh, so busy. All confirmation need to be done ASAP! All files keep coming..how can i manage myself to closed it all...I can do it but yeah, i need time too. I am just human..they shud understand lah!!

Btw, i heard this song @MTV this evening. I kinda like it lah...

"I still..."
by Backstreetboys
----------------------

Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
Baby

No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Now look at me
Instead of moving on,
I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)

I've tried to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know

That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Ohhhh
Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
Then I would never let you go (without you)

Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you

Semua UntukMU

2006-01-02T09:48:00.000-08:00

This song i dedicated to someone I love;

SEMUA UNTUKMU
by Anuar Zain
----------------------

Dengarlah bisikan angin bayu
Dengarlah bisikan ooo hatiku
Bagaikan sebuah melodi cinta murni
Semua adalah untukmu

Walaupun dalam lautku selami
Walaupun tinggi gunungku daki
Kurela tempuhi rintangan yang ada
Semua demi cinta suci

Tanpa dirimu hidup tak bererti
Tahukah kau cintaku murni
Jangan kau pergi
Dirimu tiada ganti
Akan ku berjanji oh aku berjanji
Semua adalah untukmu

Tanpa dirimu hidup tak bererti
Tahukah kau cintaku murni
Jangan kau pergi
Dirimu tiada ganti
Akan ku berjanji oh aku berjanji
Segala harapan tersemat di jiwa
Semoga kau sentiasa di sisi

Shopping..Shopping..

2006-01-02T09:31:00.000-08:00

Hmm christmas n new year sale is about to finish..byk lagi menda nak beli ni :D haha. Td baru jer p shopping, esok mcm nak shopping lagi lah..tp kalau ikutkan hati maunya mati kempunan bulan ni, hehe..duit abis shopping, gaji pulak maybe lambat next month..huh, penat keja..gaji plak lambat..ni nak amuk ni!! silap ari bulan tukar jadi kaler hijau..incredible hulk!!! muahahaha..

Tadi, I got a date with this guy. Hmm dah lama x jumpa, member lama. Dulu kurus, skarang..wow, tembamnya!! Terkejut gaks but wat to say..diri sendiri pun apa kurangnya..hahaha :D so terus topic gemuk, how ktorg gemuk, mcm mana nak slim balik..hehe, pastu baru topic about work, etc..

Today, birthday my fren's younger sis. Hm i p toys r us, belikan sumthing cute for her..hehe :) so cute, mcm rasa nak ada jugak lah!! Tomorrow baru boleh bagi kat dia..Sorry lah, I am late!! Ingat nak bagi today, tp x sempat..

Tomorrow start keja, malasnya. Byk lagi keja yg belum habis. Huh..mesti esok monyok jerr :( sendiri mau ingatlah!! Bosan bosan..

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006!!

2006-01-01T00:22:00.000-08:00

1 Jan 2006 - Sunday
A new year day

-----------------------

Midnite
I jus watching tv in my room, how ppl out there celebrating new year. Hmm its not much different, every year is almost d same. So I changed the channel and finally chose to watch 'LORD OF THE RING, The fellowship of the Ring' at TV2. I watched it until 1am and started reading my storybook again 'BUKAN PUTERI LINDUNGAN BULAN'. It's a nice storybook lah. It's about pergolakan keluarga ternama...Yeah, that's we call life. I sleep at 330am...Hope tomorrow is a new day...

Morning
I wake up at 7am, solat. Still mengantuk, hmm wish sum1 'Happy New Year' since she's just celebrating it (late 7 hours than Msia). I continue tido until 12pm :D

Noon
So bored...mandi, makan, watching tv, surfing internet...it's raining outside...

Nite
Maybe the same thing...Nothing much happen in my new day in a new year...

*****

NEW YEAR
by Unknown

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New Year come and go
May this year be the best year ever

I don't want to look back
Everything will be a memory
A memory of you and me

I always pray for our future
Hope we will find happiness in life

Hope we will care about each other
Even tomorrow is not yesterday
Tomorrow is our New Day!

Nothing Lasts Forever

2005-12-30T10:41:00.000-08:00

Nothing Lasts Forever
by Unknown
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I just see how fast time flies
It was only three years ago we met
And it was two years ago we get closer
I remember the first time we met
And called each other bestfriends
that's one thing in life I won't forget

Those years we spent with each other
Meant the most thing to me
The day when we're forced to say goodbye
My eyes will be so full, I doubt you will miss to see

We just have way too many memories
So many of your secrets lay within my ear
So many times we forgave each other
For hearing things we didn't want to hear

So many inside jokes
that only you and I would get
I know we've had some bad times
But all of them we both regret

I just don't know what I would do
without you so very close
Out of all the friends that left me
I have missed you the most

I'll enjoy these last few years though
I'll cherish the times we spent together
I'm just afraid in the future we'll find out
That nothing lasts forever

Do I look like a BANKER?

2005-12-29T09:53:00.000-08:00

MONEY...huh, everybody is working for money. But i'm not sure why, kita suka habiskan our money. I mean we shud think about our future too..like SAVINGS, sometimes we shud think mcm mana if kita tak kerja, takde duit n dats the toughest time..we will really need money! I dunno wats wrong with d ppl around me..do i look like a banker?? am i like a bankerr?? hmm..do i look like a rich girl?? hmm..i dun wear branded things, only shoes maybe (haha..influenced by my dear fren!). I dun mind wearing baju or jeans murah..asalkan selesa. But still..hmm maybe i'm the most trusted fren. Yeah, it could be..

Nice shot!

2005-12-23T03:31:00.000-08:00

I think this is one of the nicest pics dat my fren had taken...I just love it! I've started taking pics again after few months rest...I mean I've started fully used my camera again. I think I shud get a better one lah! I just dun satisfied with the quality of my 4.1MP NIKON camera! Hmm but when it comes to money, I have to think about it again...maybe one day, I'll get myself a good one. I will make myself satisfied lah! Dun wory...hehe

Europe

2005-12-12T10:44:00.000-08:00

Date : Dec 12, 2005
Sunrise at 7:36am
Sunset at 4:00pm
International country code : +43 (Austria)
Latitude : 48° 13' North
Longitude : 16° 22' East

You're in Europe now..I miss u so much lah!
Take care..Have fun! I am happy for you..

The Reasons

2005-12-06T23:21:00.000-08:00

Song : The Reasons
By : Hoobastank

***
I'm not a perfect person, As many things I wish I didn't do,
But I continue learning, I never meant to do those things to you,
And so I have to say before I go, That I just want you to know.

I've found a reason for me, To change who I used to be,
A reason to start over new,and the reason is you.

I'm sorry that I hurt you, It's something I must live with everyday,
And all the pain I put you through, I wish that I could take it all away,
And be the one who catches all your tears, Thats why I need you to hear.

I've found a resaon for me, To change who I used to be,
A reason to start over new,and the reason is You.

I'm not a perfect person, I never meant to do those things to you,
And so I have to say before I go, That I just want you to know.
I've found a reason for me, To change who I used to be,
A reason to start over new,and the reason is you.

I've found a reason to show, A side of me you didn't know,
A reason for all that I do,And the reason is you.

Partner in life...

2005-12-06T06:57:00.000-08:00

You know why God created gap between fingers?
So that someday the one who is made for you comes and fill those gaps by holding your hands forever :D

Self Analysis...haha :D

2005-12-01T06:11:00.000-08:00

This is my result;

Who you really are?

You are a person who is willing to share.
You are a bit more choosy on friends and only hangout with those whom you think are on the same frequency.
What you want in your life is half fulfilled.
You are weak in your life and tends to be fragile.
Gone case!! super high sex drive!! can't live without sex...hahaha :D
You have a few good friends in your life.
Your last relationship is not a good one and is not memorable to you.
When your partner is around, you will stick around with him/her most of the time.
You have an average ego.
A humble personality is in you.
You get average bond with your friends.
Your partner is only average in your heart.
Your partner is a very homely and humble person.
You will go to your friends whenever you are met with problems.

Is there any true friendship?

2005-11-30T10:05:00.000-08:00

are we friends, or are we not?
you told me once, but i forgot
tell me now, and tell me true
so i can say, i'm here for you.
all of the friends i've ever met
you are the one i won't forget
and if i die before you do
i'll go to heaven, and wait for you
i'll give the angels, back their wings
and risk the loss, of everything.
just to prove my friendship is true
to have a friend, a friend like you
-Loren Heath, Friends

***

if i had never met u, i wouldn't like you
if i didn't like you, i wouldn't love you
if i didn't love you, i wouldn't miss u
but i did, i do and i will..
-Unknown

***

a part of you has grown in me,
together forever we shall be.
never apart,
maybe in distance but never in heart.
-Unknown

***

i've learned in my lifetime so far that you can't help who you fall for and no matter how hard you try and how much it hurts you everyday that you just wanna be with them or just talk to them you never stop trying to make them happy by the little things you say or do because thats what makes your life worth going on for.
-Unknown

My name is Rose...

2005-11-29T12:11:00.000-08:00

Rose..
Always keep in mind.. You are not alone.. I will always here for you.. Now and forever.. Until the end of time.. Love you dearly.. Take care..

doe a deer...

2005-11-28T13:28:00.000-08:00

i feel lost when i cannot see u..cannot hear ur voice everyday..Sigh..

Insaf & Taubat...

2005-11-14T11:11:00.000-08:00

It's over 1 conversation via sms;

A : Kadang2 Allah hilangkan sekejap matahari, Kemudian Dia datangkan pula guruh dan kilat, Puas kita menangis mencari mana matahari kita, Rupanya Allah nak hadiahkan kita pelangi yang indah..

M : I dun knw ur heart but I hope pelangi yg Allah hadiahkan x akan melekakan. Jadikan matahari, hujan, guruh & kilat sbg dugaan. Bertaubatlah selagi pintu itu masih terbuka..

A : Thank you, dear. I really appreciate it. y life choices hv 2b so tough..

M : Bcoz ure d chosen 1..Allah nak jadikan kita orang2 yg x lupakan Dia & kuat dlm menghadapi dugaan2nya. I hope I kuat..

CUTE SONG...

2005-11-11T11:09:00.000-08:00

CAMELIA
Rindu Padanya

Sejak terpandang wajahmu
Hatiku bertanya selalu
Siapa dia mengikat pandanganku

Seringkali dia berlalu
Di hadapan dan menyapaku
Sehingga hatiku seringkali merindu
Tak dapat ku melupakan dirinya
Terbayang wajahmu di mataku

Ingin ku tanya namanya
Tapi hatiku rasa malu
Tak terucapkan walau sepatah kata
Mungkinkah diriku telah dilamun cinta
Oh... hatiku resah selalu

Haruskah aku menyatakan
Perasaanku kepadanya
Mungkinkah dia kini telah berpunya
Getar hati makin terasa
Bila terdengar suara dan bertentang mata
Ku bagaikan bebunga kehujanan
Berkembang mekar
Di setiap ketika

Tidur malamku tak lena
Asyik teringat padanya
Bilakah mentari memancarkan cahaya
Hanyalah dirinya bermain diingatan
Oh...tuhan ku rindu padanya

Broken Heart?

2005-11-09T06:26:00.000-08:00

I am so sad and so depressed - my heart has broken but I know I am not alone. Just about everyone experiences the type of grief we call heartbreak at one time or another - and some people seem to have their hearts broken many times throughout their lives. Sometimes it feels like all those songs about broken hearts were written just for me and my situation!

Lots of things can caused heartbreak. People describe heartbreak as a feeling of heaviness, emptiness, and sadness. So do I...

We end our relationship since we had a different path in life...I admit it! Now, I am trying all the tips below to help myself to recover.

Tips that might help recovering from heartbreak;

Share your feelings.
Some people find that sharing their feelings with someone they trust - someone who recognizes what they're going through - helps them feel better. That could mean talking over all the things you feel, even having a good cry on the shoulder of a comforting friend or family member. Others find they heal better if they hang out and do the things they normally enjoy, like seeing a movie or going to a concert, to take their minds off the hurt. Sometimes people who mean well but don't understand the depths of your hurt may try to cheer you up with statements like "you'll get over it" or "you'll meet someone else." These people are probably trying to help in the only way they know. But if you feel like someone can't relate to what you're going through or is dismissive of your feelings, find someone more sympathetic to talk to.

Take good care of yourself.
A broken heart can be very stressful so don't let the rest of your body get broken, too. Get lots of sleep, eat healthy foods, and exercise regularly to minimize stress and depression and give your self-esteem a boost.

Remember what's good about you.
Sometimes people with broken hearts start to blame themselves for what's happened. They may be really down on themselves, exaggerating their faults as though they did something to deserve the unhappiness they're experiencing. If you find this happening to you, nip it in the bud! Remind yourself of your good qualities, and if you can't think of them because your broken heart is clouding your view, get your friends to help you remember what's good about you.

Keep yourself busy.
Sometimes this is difficult when you're coping with sadness and grief, but it really helps. This is a great time to redecorate your room or try a new hobby. That doesn't mean you shouldn't think about what happened - working things through in our minds is all part of the healing process - it just means you should focus on other things, too.

Give yourself time.
It takes time for sadness to go away. Almost everyone thinks they won't feel normal again, but the human spirit is amazing - and the heartbreak almost always heals after a while. But how long will that take? That depends on what caused your heartbroken feeling, how you deal with loss, and how quickly you tend to bounce back from things. Mending a broken heart can take a couple of days to many weeks - and sometimes even months.

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I hope everything will be over. I am trying my very best to be normal again. Everyday I have to hear this song to make me feel better. My dear, I trust every words that come from you...

Goodbye My Lover
by James Blunt

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be.

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Unfinished Work...!!

2005-11-01T00:29:00.000-08:00

"Happy Deepavali guys"

Its been long, i tak dress up like today untuk pergi ofis. Today i just come for OT, it's unfinished work - it will stop when u resign :). Its quite long actually i didn't dressed up until i rasa malu utk berjalan alone from parking lot to our dept..hehe. I never feel this way before..so uncomfortable with that feeling but i love to dress up like this!! i feel so brand new...i mean the feeling and the ppl around me are different now. Am i see the ppl in a different way now??! hmm i dunno...but the only thing i know is, i used to be like this before...this is TRUE ME!

Life can be changed in a few seconds but it depends on how we want to change it!! I love myself...I love to be me...Thanks my dear, for your support and giving me back my life...I really appreciate what you have done to me. I really love you! :) forever...

The best Ramadhan & 'Eid Mubarak'...

2005-10-31T09:12:00.000-08:00

Hmm its been a while i did not blogging. There's a lot of interesting things happen during these few weeks when we are in 'bulan puasa'. I can't imagine how i can survive...hmm and i loss 3 kilos in a week! Fuhh...its tough but i have to face it...

I was happy last week, when i knw my bestfren got an offer from other company with better salary. But then, she has to fly to Germany for a training. Hmm dat makes me so sad. Suddenly, she also changed...i dunno wats wrong but she did changed. I was down until i can't sleep day/nite and loss my appetite. During this 'bulan puasa', she buat perangai until i can't hold it anymore. I try to confront her and finally..in one fine morning, i get the answer to everything. I finally satisfied and now we are trying our best to make things better. We appreciated each other much more better now. The problem we have to face now is..we have to find our path separately. She will be in Germany for two months, that means I will be apart from my bestfren for that long. She's everything to me...i mean it! She is the one who is really understand me. I don't like to fight with her...I adore and love her so much to see her in trouble! Now, she is busy preparing her things before fly to Germany. I promised her to go for Christmas and New Year 2006. I hope this year will be a good year of all.

I am happy now with my life. Eid Mubarak will come in 3 days time...hmm i think this is the best Ramadhan and Eid Mubarak ever. I finally knw the meaning of true friendship! I hope she will be there for me forever..whenever I need her. We never knw our future!

@Dear My Beloved Friend : I love u so much..today and everyday!

W.E.E.K.E.N.D

2005-09-30T16:07:00.000-07:00

YES! It's already weekend... What i've done this week?! Hmm...not so sure. A lot actually but not so sure...Hmm a surprised party for me, yesterday on lunch hour - thanks a lot guys, i am so surprised!! - Jida, Za, Kak Lina, Kak Ina, Yasmin, Wana n Izmin

My working time is 7pm to 430am. Now the wall clock shows at 710am...I am so exhausted. I need a break and long rest. Hmm, a fren of mine just came back from Johor yesterday. She wants to see my best fren and i. Maybe we will meet this evening but rite now, i really need a good day sleep now - zZZzzZZz! For u guys out there (same shift as me)...hmm i know how u feel. I don't have life...i need a life...

Okay, time to go to bed now. Happy weekend!
Gutnite Meow...

My BLOG!

2005-09-30T12:22:00.000-07:00

Here i start again...i lost my pswd for my first and foremost blog! Arghhh...i think my brain doesn't work well lah recently. I always lost a part of my memory. It should be here (in my head) but when i tried to think back, uhoh...i can't! It's so serious...!! I just feel like shout and blame myself on this. I think my job and my day make my memory a bit loss here n there...Haha...

Today, we celebrated a fren's 31st birthday at her unplanned party. She seems so happy and got a big teddy bear from all of us. She treated us for dinner at pizza hut (even it's not her plan...she was just been fool by one of d stupid guy in our office! stupid dupid...huh...)

Btw, this is from my last blog - 'I just celebrated my 25th birthday! I am a big girl now'