Problem..problem..

I got this problem since last week..guess what?!! Hm my sleeping problem. Terasa mcm sakit pun ada, tension la bila nak tido..tak boleh tido pulak. What should I do??!! Rasa mcm nak telan sleeping pills pun ada..Hehe, tapi takutla pulak nanti addicted (setiap kali nak tido kena telan..jadi routine plak, mampussss!!). Last week, I think 2 days jugak tak tido. On last thurs, I went back home at 9am..mandi and ready to sleep. Huh..I couldn't sleep, just baring and bergolek sampai 4 jam. Until dah tak boleh tahan, terus bangun kemas rumah, basuh baju etc (ni apa yg I selalu buat when I feel tensed up :D). After 2 hours mengemas, I rasa fresh balik..terus pegi ofis. Keja lagi..bosan..

Pastu, on last saturday nite..I felt sleepy at 11pm. My cousin pulak ajak tengok movie..one of afdlin shauki punya movie. Bodoh gila nak mampus!! At the end, rupanya..I yang tengok sorang. My cousin dah ntah ke mana-mana (fell asleep dengan jayanya...) I jer yang terkebil-kebil sorang. I tried to sleep at 230am..berjaya! Unfortunately, terjaga at 4am..terus tak boleh tido balik. I bangun and tengok astro (movie title NEMESIS GAME, it's kinda weird..huh). I tried untuk tido balik at 7am, after subuh..tak berjaya jugak. Then my dad ajak pegi test drive keta idaman I..hehe, memang excited sangat sampai terus tak mengantuk. I pengsan or called tertido at 3pm..tak sedar diri sampai 8pm bila semua orang dalam rumah datang kejutkan (my cousin, my mom, my sis, my nephew) :D

Ohh, I got another problem too. Maybe rentetan dari peristiwa yang tak diundang :) mcm cerita sastera pulak. I don't know how is my life after this. I am scared to face the reality..I am counting days!! Yes, I am still crying before I fall asleep..almost everyday..I don't know why I keep asking myself,
"Why all of this should happened..???!!!"

Moral of the story, don't love somebody too much. It will hurts you..very deep and you will live with it..